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August 16

有没搞错?

 

访问数70~都谁啊?

以后不留名的都给我注意了哈

 

 

July 25

美好地..回忆..

我想要个孩子
 
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I need you..
 
I need you...
 
I need you....
 
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想死也这么麻烦
 
 

The last 8 days...

正在尝试戒烟,因为已经咳嗽4天了...可看到别人抽自己又忍不住.
我就是这样..没有毅力..没治了.一直都这样..过于我行我素.不考虑别人感受.
自己遭罪,还让人担心.SRY袄~关心我地人~这里还有吗?:)
我知道...我很没出息..但我保证..这是最后一次这样了....
也许.....从一开始,就是个错误...
但如果可以重新开始,我还是会选择同样的路.
不到黄河心不死..是不是这么说的?鱼与熊掌不可兼得.想得到就要失去..
但代价未免太大了点.希望有人可以理解我的苦衷吧.
就当一切只是一个梦...醒来后,我还是..
需要点时间..-_-..
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July 24

如此平静...

时间 越来越近 没想到这么快
你 就要离开
我们始终还是没有熬过这一次
想试着挽回 却发现我早已没有了力气
更没有理由 让你留下
我对你的感情 无法形容
我想 我是爱你的
就算曾经 有所抱怨
也只是 口是心非 只是期待你可以偶尔为我低下头
我所谓的优越感 在你面前 荡然无存
有时候 真的不知道 我是不是自己
迷惑 但从没想过放弃
又是一个未眠的夜 海边 应该有你
阴天 没看到夕阳 也没有坚持到日出
抬头 只是厚厚的云
潮水 没过了双脚
才知道 心有多凉
烟 烧尽的是思念 吸进的是悲伤
残留在胸口 还隐隐作痛

平静 如此
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April 06

手机被掏了~我操 

RT
看看旧号码能不能拿回来吧
-.-郁闷死啊~
我恨小偷~T.T
 我手机号换了15942646428
January 30

怎么酒喝不醉啊...

我得到报应了~够了。。
好累啊。。
明天开始,面对现实吧~
童话般的爱情不属于我。。。
该干什么 ,干什么去。
 
 
January 27

飞蛾扑火..

明明知道是怎样的结局 还要硬着头皮走下去....
不到黄河心不死..就算遍体鳞伤也无所谓..
如果还会觉得痛,那就证明,我还是值得被爱的.
 
偶然发现一首诗....
 
我在苦苦寻找
一个光明的城堡
为我驱散黑暗
让我安心依靠

我在苦苦寻找
一个温暖的怀抱
可以抵挡寒风
可以相守到老

传说中在心心相印的地方
有个光明的城堡
那里洋溢幸福
就像祥光普照

传说中那真心相爱的恋人
都有温暖的怀抱
他们相信真爱
可以天荒地老

我不顾一切
闯进你的城堡
就算熊熊烈火会将我燃烧

我闭上双眼
投向你的怀抱
就让熊熊烈火来将我燃烧

甘心忍受 爱的煎熬
甘心承受 爱的烧烤
好不好 天知道
天有情 天亦老
只是我 死也不逃  
 
也发现一首歌...王菲的《扑火》
 
不在乎多少人在等我的拥抱
只迫切想拥有你的微笑
自尊丢到墙角
掏出所有的好
你还是不看
你还是不要
每一天都有梦在心里头死掉
我自己对自己
大声咆哮
人太忠于感觉
就难好好思考
我痛的想哭
却傻傻的笑
爱到飞蛾扑火
是种堕落
谁喜欢天天把折磨当享受
可是为情奉献
让我觉得
自己是骄傲的
伟大的
爱到飞蛾扑火
是很伤痛
我只是相信人总会被感动
你为什么就是
不能爱我
像我那么深的爱你为什么
为什么

 
 
 
 
December 31

2007最后一天了...

好象还有很多事没有做..转眼又是一年~时间过的好快...
不知道2008等待我的是什么捏?还是脚踏实地,一步一个脚印地走吧~
心急吃不了热豆腐~HOHO~加油~!
2007,还算完整吧~long long way to go~~
December 27

真好听~Too little too late~

  
 
(they say) i'm a little to young to understand
but it's a little to late too hold my hand
you know i never subscribe to yes sir no sir
gonna learn gonna love gonna take my chance
it's a little too late for you to say
that i'm a little too young to feel this way

'cause i just wanna be loved just wanna be heard
be lost in the feeling standing here
at the door to my life
now that day has arrived so loud and clear
you'll hear me singing
do do doo do do do do do do
i'm singing
do do do do do do do do do

(they say) i'm a little too lost without you here
(they said) that i'm a little too soft and too sincere
'cause i never subscribe to who sir me sir
gonna stand gonna fall gonna face my fears
it's a little too late for me to wait
'cause your're never to young to feel this way

'cause i just wanna be loved just wanna be heard
be lost in the feeling standing
here at the door to my life
now that day has arrived so loud and clear
you'll hear me singing
do do doo do do do do do do
i'm singing
do do do do do do do do do

if i want your help i'll say help me
i'm okay i'm alright won't you hear me loud and clear

'cause i just wanna be loved just wanna be heard
be lost in the feeling standing here
at the door to my life
now that day has arrived so loud and clear
you'll hear me singing
do do doo do do do do do do
i'm singing
do do do do do do do do do

i'm a little too young to understand
but it's a little too late to hold my hand
i'm a little too lost without you here
that i'm a little too soft and too sincere




 
December 16

要么自杀 要么出家

因为彼此互相喜欢,轰轰烈烈生活在一起的人,大多多劳燕分飞各奔东西.
因为彼此互相依赖,平平淡淡生活在一起的人,最后却能相濡以沫顺理成章.
就像朋友说的那样,最后和你在一起的人,不一定就是你最想要的,而是能一直陪在你身边的人...
至少对像我们这类人来说是这样.到底哪种才是真正的幸福呢?
得不到最爱的人,不是幸福的.无论发誓任何事,能有个人站在你身后,也是幸福的.
人就是这么矛盾.永远不知道自己想要什么.也许再过几年,一切都有了结果,就会恍然大悟了吧.
聪明的人,是该为自己想好退路的.我又何尝不是如此自私呢.那么说声对不起.我不是圣人...
我只是被久违而似曾相识的幸福感觉冲昏了头,忘了回来的路罢了.
自作孽,不可活呀....眼前不只一次出现一个画面...我对XX说,贫僧已看破红尘,施主请回吧...
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December 14

欲言又止

太多次 想写些什么 可每次都是写完 又删掉了
不知道为什么要写 是发泄 还是什么 总之没人帮的了我
太多事 积压在心头 日子久了 反而懒得去提 不也这样过来了么
长这么大第一次有种绝望的感觉 像是掉入了沼泽 越是挣扎 越是陷的深
好累..
是该好好整理一下自己的时候了吧 
想得到某样东西 就一定会失去些什么 这样才能得到平衡
忽然明白 重要的不是想做什么 而是该做什么...lol...悲哀.. 
December 08

Night Prayer

This lonely road i am walking on.
where did it begin?where will it end?
and when the dark night comes.
who will save my soul?
On my lonely road will i walk alone?
I never feared darkness coming near.
Now i don't know why I behold the sky.
To find the brightest star
with it's brilliant light
So I pray to thee,will you shine on me?
Mother moonlight, fill my scared eyes
Light up my way with your brightest ray
Shining on everything through the clouds
Take my hands till the morning will come.
This dusty road where i walk alone
with my restless heart and my tired bones
It's going on and on
But i know for sure
That it's leading me to the world of dreams
This lonely road i am walking on
where did it begin?where will it end?
And when the dark night comes
WHo will save my soul?
On my lonely road will i walk alone?
I never feared darkness coming near
Now I don't know why i behold the sky
To find the brightest star
With it's brilliant light
So i pray to thee, will you shine on me...
July 27

回忆

 反反复复打开自己的空间,又反复的关闭.每次想写点什么,却欲言又止.不知道从什么时候开始,我变得如此混乱.整理一下思绪,还是把自己想到的事情记录下来吧.很多事情我都忘记了,那么写下来,就不会了吧.呵呵.
 郁闷,糊里糊涂写了两段,发现根本没有意义,我这是怎么了呀....愁死人呀愁死人!啊哈哈哈=.=我是不是疯了....想哭哇....昨天掉了两滴不太爽,看到伤感的情节就是忍不住,遗传了我家老太太发达的泪腺, 恩,不怪我.告诉你们啊,谁说我是老娘们儿我跟谁急.
 说起眼泪,我还真流过不少...
 最多的还是被人打哭地=.=
事件1:小时候,大概有5岁?用小刀砍了爷爷种了好久的向日葵,被爷爷追得满院子跑呀,跑呀,后来挨没挨打我忘记列,不过我估计是的,不然为啥我老做梦被人撵呢.
事件2:和几个朋友跑出几里地去抓鱼还是青蛙来的,老妈在街上找了我俩小时以为我被拍花儿的给拍走了,我到家的时候看见她老人家都快哭出来了.没等我说话就挨了一顿揍,扫帚疙瘩那玩意打人真疼啊...哭啊,我当然哭啊,不哭我妈能停手么.
事件3:有一次...blabla...Sry啊.记不起来为啥了,等我回去问问我爸再说.反正我是被吊在房梁上了,挺混乱的我,到底是真的还是做梦我都分不清了.现在想想这不是家庭暴力是什么啊,对当时的我来说那就是满清十大窟刑.多少都有点儿阴影儿.那家伙...皮带,钢尺..就差老虎凳辣椒水儿了.怎么办,我就使劲儿哭!(此事件有待考证)
 挨打的事儿,哎,算了,丢人..
 意外受伤太疼的话....当然会哭啊=.=
   恩,重新回顾一下我吃过的苦也好.
事件1:应该是3岁,妈妈的自行车被一辆马车刮到,我从后面摔了下来...那次好象没哭,当场昏迷吧.哎,活下来不容易啊..脑震荡连续服药到7岁.
事件2:玩火碰洒油锅,左耳后大面积烫伤,没烧到脸我就忍了.还记得妈妈把我摁在怀里给我擦药,边擦边吹,我疼的哭着跳下去,又哭着喊着轻点去找妈妈..我知道妈妈心疼..我乖,咬牙擦吧,不擦就不会好的.
恩,奇迹呀,这个烫伤竟然没有留下一点痕迹.我还记得那天擦药的时候电视正在播动物世界.:)
事件3:小学一年级学校施工,玩累了骑马打仗的我蹲在地上玩石头,被一从"马"上掉下来的同学砸在身上,我跌倒的样式应该就是大家所说的"狗吃屎"吧.说白了就是头朝下,左眼框与太阳穴之间被撞裂,没看到血的时候我还笑着说没事,小时侯不都喜欢逞能么.后来感觉有粘糊糊的液体在手上,我一看就顿时sb了.哭的嗷嗷的=.=人丢大了.
事件4:说起眼角的伤想起来,幼儿园的时候在屋子里转圈圈,自己把自己转晕了,倒在了血泊之中.oh sry.是卡在里床头上.我想我当时也是昏迷了,不然我怎么完全不记得了呢?只是有个疤,事情的经过是家人告诉我的,恩,应该不会错,不过我觉得真的是这样的话,小时侯我也真够蠢的.
事件5:爬墙头儿,凳子不稳,我翻了下来正好撞在铁板上,头的右上长犄角的地方(如果人有犄角的话应该是那里)缝了三针.缝针的时候没打麻药,说对身体不好.我还清晰的记得我躺在那张黑色床上,床周围围了一群人,据说是帮忙按住我的.想象到我的爆发力了吧!没10个8个的根本拦不住.ps:我大概也只有8岁.
事件6:跟弟弟几个朋友玩捉迷藏,我顺着锅炉往仓库上爬,结果锅炉太滑,一脚没踩住掉了下来.大概也就3米高吧,下边还有一层煤.按理说应该没事的,可谁知在空中的挣扎的我使身体由纵向变成了横向,过于狭窄的锅炉无情地卡了我的后脑勺儿...大概也是3针左右.
事件7:小学5年级,和6年级的人渣们"玩诺曼底登陆"...我们是好人啊,当然得不要命的冲了,结果不济,被法西斯残忍地推下领操台.我则以苏联大坐式平稳着陆,谁知道我这腿这么不结实,竟然骨折....=.=骨折那几个月,苦练习玻璃球.赢了好多呀..
事件8:雷同于事件7.初中一年级,冰天雪地,和同学摔交被撂倒,自己又把自己的左腿坐断了,而且是同一个地方......同样的错误,白痴才会犯两次,从那以后开始怀疑自己的智商.
事件9:最深刻的就是今年2月了....左手腕缝了20针左右,差点落下残疾.希望以后可以逢凶化吉吧.
 (删了删了,真麻烦.)
 没想到我一口气说了这么多,想到哪说到哪....真是毫无思路呀.原谅我吧,以后再也不瞎BB了我.我先哭会儿.太TM压抑了这日子过的.
 
 
July 03

我想回家....

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris or Rome...
But I wanna go home
...uhm Home
May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters
That I wrote to you,
Each one a line or two
I'm fine baby, how are you?
I would send them but I know that
It's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane, another sunny place,
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living
Someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why
You could not come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me...
Another winter day
Has come and gone away
In either Paris or Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
I still feel alone
Let me go home
I miss you , you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
 
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可惜....找不到路...没有方向...我又走丢了...操...终于知道为什么那么多人想自杀了.真他妈失败.别理我.我现在很傻B.干!
 
 
June 08

I See something is wrong..


Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams
Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong
I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III
No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?
Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair
Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong
Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

sex

War....

Drugs...

Even Love....
June 07

血腥的诠释——肢解的爱情(转)

恐怖的爱情啊.应该没人这么爱我吧.

恶魔VS天使...


烟,吸进的是寂寞,吐出的是思念....
                          
             **test**who cares..it means nothing.
              这个就是测试.....刚学会贴图.....丢丢别放心上.
May 22

独家试爱

    清晨,雨渐渐的停了.爬上阳台,竟然分不清是初夏还是初冬.头顶依然飘着厚厚的云,潮湿的风仿佛把我带到海边.我很享受这种感觉,虽然只穿了短裤和T-SHIRT,还是在那里呆了好一会儿.也许写这篇日志的目的,仅仅是为了记录它,不经意间的感觉,都能让人的思绪凌乱.天气,左右我的情绪.
    呵呵,每次写日志,题目都是最头疼的.因为我不会写那种之乎者也的文章,只是想到哪,就说到哪.今天终于找到了主题......还是一部电影的名字.尽管B4我好了.故事呢...是这样的...=.=我懒得说哦,简单一点吧.
E..算了...故事简介:
我们总在爱情的分分离离中徘徊...新婚的第一夜,林嘉华(方力申饰)和邝美宝(邓丽欣饰)像一般由初恋便结婚的小夫妻一样,对婚姻总有一刻犹豫和回想。幸好,两人最后同样相信自己找到的,便是一生独一无二的伴侣。但好景不常,开宠物店的华在办宠物丧礼时重遇中学补习老师Josephine(吴佩慈饰),她再次吸引着华。宝在突击检查中找不到华,后来更发现华一直都与Josephine秘密约会。宝接受不到华的不忠而提出离婚...多年的感情就此完结还是会有转机? 变了心的人最终会知道自己心中最爱是谁吗?
大概的故事情节就是这样了,我只是觉得这个电影的结局,是很让人费解的.怎么理解,那要看每个人的观念了.结局是阿宝原谅了阿华,最后的镜头是阿又华收到JOSEPHINE的短讯,回复之后,删除.阿宝则在给那段冷战期间结识的喜欢她的一个男人写信,开头为亲爱的...她偷偷的关上门..
我得出的结论:
年轻人冲动容易做错事,草率的结婚并不一定是好事.
女主角说,一日不忠,百日不用.最后还是原谅了他.有时候,偶尔放弃一点自尊,给别人机会,也给自己机会.毕竟多年的感情,不是那么轻易的就抹掉.
所谓一朝被蛇咬,十年怕井绳,本来两人毫无戒备之心,却因为一个短讯产生了隔阂.相信,才是爱的动力.
 
只是一直在告诉自己,尽量避免,做不成熟的事.有些事情,也只能憋在心里,等待慢慢消逝的那天.有人说,不要给自己留下遗憾,也许吧,但至少我会永远,记得.
头疼....睡觉,晚安.
 

 
April 12

Fort Minor - Where'd You Go

Fort Minor - Where'd You Go

Fort Minor's MySpace Page
 
 
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April 09

SIMPLE PLAN <<UNTITLED>>

好喜欢这首歌啊,也很好学.强烈推荐.

 

i open my eyes
i try to see by i am blinded by the white light
i can`t remember how
i can`t remember why
i am lying here tonight

and i can`t stand the pain
and i can`t make it go away
no i can`t stand the pain

how could this happen to me
i make my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i`m fading away
i sick of this life
i just want to scream
how could this happen to me

everybody is screaming
i try to make it sound but no one hears me
i am slipping off the edge
i am handing by a thread
i wanna start this over again

so i try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
and i can`t explain what happened
and i can`r erase the things i`ve done
no i can`t

how could this happen to me
i make my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i`m fading away
i sick off this life
i just want to scream
how could this happen to me

i make my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
as i`m fading away
i sick off this life
i just want to scream
how could this happen to me